Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Admit

40 years in the wilderness


What can we admit? That words matter, yes: the how-to instructions sprayed pixel by pixel onto this now yellowing page. That power tools require power. That a world that never sleeps means the world never gets to rest. Now we can admit that digging into the earth for cast-off remnants of the sun – when the sun itself continues to shine – well, tunnel, mine, burrow, cave, treasure, riches – they all belong, and return, to the sun.

On the taiga, in the lee of the west hills, Karp and his family prepared. Each morning they prayed for the hideous torture death of the anti-Christ. Dmitry might not be there. He may have been gone for some days, barefoot in the frost, hunting with snares for rabbit and weasel. He might return tonight. The forest might provide. Or not. Time isn’t an issue where there are no clocks. It may as well be a series of tableaux, like turning pages in an art-history book on the Middle Ages, before perspective was permitted, before the separation of onlooker and the viewed was understood.

The geologists were dowsing for oil, or gold, or some precious metal like uranium. They always are. Lewis and Clark’s famous expedition paved the way for the looting. Darwin’s Beagle spawned evolution and the meticulous cataloging of flora and fauna. Who bankrolled Columbus and the litany of Spanish and Italian explorers? It’s what they do. For us. So when they stumbled onto Karp’s little encampment, furrowed dirt passing for a garden, birch-bark hovel little more than something Brer’ Rabbit might have dug, and they took pictures and brought presents and television and perhaps maladies so that 3 of the 4 siblings died, and Karp died, leaving only Agafia to tend her garden, she remained unafraid. After all, what could hurt her? 40 years of Siberian cold? Starvation, that wicked hunter who clambers up inside skulls found no purchase – she had never eaten a feast, so he had no images to taunt her with – he had no claim. Loneliness? The last remaining hermit – no. She lived further removed than any human, except the scientists on Antarctica, and they had each other and satellite connections.

Let the explorers depart and search for their eye’s content, something from the earth no doubt, some mineral or gem or liquid, condensed by eons of pressure, something that allows the onlooker to be transported into some place where they can escape from having to search the most challenging terrain. 

Friday, January 25, 2013

ice

I'm certain
you're not
the only one
to hear the crinkle of broken ice
underfoot, after a night freeze,
like laughter through a window
or the tug of tumbling stones
broken over and over
by incoming waves.

Have you ever stared at sepals
pursed tighter than a scowl
patiently waiting past
setting and rising suns
certain they'll open
more sure than the sweet tang of ice cream
that your reward
is just
moments, a minute, just a minute

then the sound
maybe only your imagination
and you glance away
but in that instant you weren't attentive
then
that's when

the clink and crash of ice underfoot
sounds like a broken promise.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

E

My first favorite letter
must be E
for exuberance. For effort. For the first big animal
the elephant on a flash card, its arm of a nose
like a trumpet made of laughter, and E
gets to be big and loud and different and noisy.

You're past the slow beginnings, but it's still early, 7:15
on a sunny morning, when steam rises off grass
like a gassy promise, the alphabet has so much future
and here come the big words, exultation,
electric, ecstatic. Here is the rest
of the day ahead, the year, the life before us,
it's turning 12
and knowing your A-B-C's is commonplace
but now you get to the meat, the heart, the future of life
and little words haven't crawled up
to weigh you down, words haven't emptied you out
leaving you exhausted, waiting for the end.

E isn't like that. Not in the morning. It carries
the future. It's in everything, it's everywhere
it follows love and makes it complete,
it's even in absence

which is why I can spell sons
without it
and still know my favorites are in there.




Monday, January 14, 2013

for D. and A.

All the big
words don't matter
much in the quiet

days following the final exhale.
The beautiful woman whose gossamer garments
filled up moments
colors bright as a butterfly swarm
with lives just as short

her fingers empty of fingers

coolly inhaling, still
heart still beating

and none of the words matter.


Wednesday, January 2, 2013

13

He wears his shoulders higher
so much so mine no longer drape
and must climb a bit

while he gravels his voice
and places foot astride my shoe
apprising how soon

he'll be lord
though in practice
he manages his minion brother to distraction

in the frozen section at the market
the same spot I once leaned over
his feet dangling from the carrier

squirming at the cold
so the kind lady reached in
handed the box

to him, cooing, both
smiling
completely

unlike today, brothers bickering
like a murder
of crows

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Crows

14 crows perch on the neck
and shoulders of the middle-aged pine
squabbling no doubt over whose is
the blowing wrapper lifted from the bins

and whose is the too-much-so-toss-it
lettuce shreds, corn-fed cow bits
all a-splat, HFCS ketchup bleeding everywhere
from hideously smooth buns.

If they preen my eyes can't discern
but for a flash of sallow beak against black feather.
It's said that crows have voracious memories
and will pester anyone who disturbs them

remembering faces for years, memories
of ancient wrongs they've been storing
in the clouds far longer than any computer
so I studiously avoid shooing them

just measuring the 14 steps from my door to the ground
and 32 paces around the bend to my silver car
sometimes wondering where the color
in birds went, and where went their songs