Sky Current

Here, it rains.I won't make it sad:
it feeds the soil so the earthworms can do
what they do and not dry out
until later, after the rain stops
the sun comes out
to bake the sidewalk but the worms
didn't get the memo
and try to sneak, little squiggly ninjas
until I find them like pieces of shoelace
or blackened onion slivers that slipped out
of the frypan when I stir too vigorously.
But for now it rains
I won't make it sad
I imagine my face there, upturned,
welcoming this version of a dried-out me
basking in the sky current
like heaven's love
before the inevitable
drought

Love Dog

I carried him, black hairs furring my white shirt, into the back yard and sat him down on the grass between the Meyer lemon tree, redolent, and the red delicious apple tree now busting out a hundred pippins, and together in the dark we surveyed his domain. Over there behind the prickly bush he used to spirit plastic bags, until we finally (large brains and all) figured out where all the bread was going: he was stealing it from high off the counter and sneaking it to gingerly devour in his private dining room, hidden from view, until the detritus of perhaps 40 bags (we're slow learners) leaked out from behind the bushes and his secret was revealed. Heads together, we looked at the blackberry brambles now filling the blank spaces between the black fence bars, the slender blueberry stems straining for fall, the tall but not yet productive pear tree. We looked at the bits of birch cones that always found their way onto his fur and into the house. This was his yard, and he sagged into my arms.

Where did those seven years go? Eight nearly, in people years, so for this sweetest black lab, was it fifty? It was a life lived at breakneck speed and long, lounging sleeps on the couch or bed, happily resting his jaw on the sofa arm, or especially as he lay down on his green checked dog bed, he moved his paw and arm over mine while I scratched his chest, and sighed that doggy sigh, heavy enough to flap his lips and make that whinny. He struggled up, not making it, so I propped his haunches and he stuttered a step, two, resting again until I swept his old bones and blood dotted with something else and tuna-smelling breath and that curly black fur into my arms that can't hold him enough, and held him, not enough, back inside to his bed, leaving his darkened yard behind.

He won't be greeting me in the driveway, tearing from lawn to lawn and spinning like a dervish in love and devotion, and I won't be chasing him back and forth like a six year old, and it's too much for him to sneak a loaf from the table, he wouldn't eat the pesto, even, offered like to a gouty Roman senator. The chemo ended Friday and he was spry, Saturday he aged like clay in the oven, Sunday his right leg stopped working and his eyes sank, and Monday his rear haunches announced they no longer cared to walk. Last week he was sliding up onto the couch like old times, if no longer chasing to meet the neighbor dog at least he'd saunter. Time is leaking out of his life faster than a bee swarm. The yellow flowers from the pepper tree out front litter the driveway, those bees are relentless, they smile their secrets into the pepper and bring forth pungent and color and a brown stain on the concrete and those yellow florets dropped onto his fur and into the house, and soon there won't be any more spins of a dog on his lawn or on the brick living room floor and I'll have to lay down to gather those bee's lunch remains and pretend Jonnie will be sniffling up to lick my chin and ask for a scratch behind his ears, and these years and moments that swim before us like silvery minnows as we drink up, drink up, drink in the water of our days in the heartbeat of an old black dog.